AM- 12 w/ 3 mile tempo. Well, today started out feeling alright. We went for about 6 miles then started out 3 mile tempo. I started out the first mile with coach holt and michael at 6:06 pace. Then, something happened that didn't last week....I freaked out. Here's my speal.....and please I know I shouldn't do this but I did. To be honest....I am intimidated by Michael now....Before it was Tyson, but now that Michael has done so well and broken that mental block and well, I haven't. I know I'm just as fast, but where's my proof? I need to just trust myself and run my workout/race. Because every workout this summer I've done well....he hasn't been here! I can't seem to concentrate on the right things. Anyways the next mile I slowed down a ton (6:32). Then, the very last mile I just fell apart (7:00) and hunter passed me. I really need to get over these mental limits and also just shake off this run! I need to just be me and run like me (which is way faster than this)!
PM-3 I kinda gave myself a pep-talk before this run. I really just boosted my confidence and just told myself I am a good runner and that I am mentally strong and stuff like that because sometimes I just tell myself I need to improve this or that and that I need to fix my mental strength when in fact I am really mentally strong I just don't believe in that mental strength! I really had fun this run and had some good jokes and laughs along the way! I really had fun and really want everyone to do well this wendsday...including myself! | 